i'm working on a software dev for my paper. i'm suppose to learn abt CMS and change the existing system to fit da faculty's environment. i knew tht i got a problem when my supervisor never returns my sms, email msg, calls and etc. i wasnt able 2 do anything since da servers were always down and i cant get a lab 2 do work!
it was really frustrating tht i got thinking of dropping da paper. but schatz wanted me to finish dis sem, find a job and help him financially. i decided 2 see my head of program 2 tell him my problems and asked 4 his tots. he said tht it's impossible 4 me 2 finish da study. he suggest 2 me 2 drop da paper and continue 4 next sem. i wasnt surprised cos i did feel tht i havent done much. i rather drop da paper and extend one sem than getting very poor marks wz a lousy study results.
he gave me an hour 2 think abt it and see him afterwards. so, i called schatz and talked 2 him abt it. i was so crushed tht i cried n hope tht he didnt think tht im doin it intentionally. schatz told me tht it was alrite. we can adjust to it. so, i met the head again and told him tht i'm dropping da paper. i also tried 2 explain 2 him tht i know i can still make it if i sit 4 da paper but i just cant do it. i cant bare getting low marks cos i know i can do it if everything was okay!
he understands and told me tht i am one of his best student. tht really lifted up my spirit. he logged on 2 da system and dropped my thesis paper. tht was it!! another sem 2 go! i know i did da right thing. there must be a good reason 4 it. it's quite interesting 2 realize tht when i did my diploma, i extent one sem jus bcos i cant sit 4 one elective course bcos all of da classes were full. i met my head of program which was a female back then and asked 4 her opinion. she told me 2 extend. wtf?!
however, im planning 2 work part time and help schatz. i can do it!!
-masni-
